”When you’re talking to a fan, you’re talking to somebody who’s not talking to you. They’re talking to a photograph, they’re talking to their image of you, they’re talking to a walking poster. And if you make the mistake of thinking, that they’re talking to you… When they tell you that you’re a genius, or that you’re so fucking cool… Or whatever their fucking image is of you… Then if you believe it… Then you, the real human being dies.” – John Frusciante
I won the local final so I had to go to the national final of this University Artistic Competition. Univers-Cite en spectacle. The competition was 1 hour and a half from my home. So I went there, Saturday morning. I arrived late because I got lost. At 12:30, I was there for sound check. It went well, the sound was great, it was in a huge theatre. After, I met all the other artists. Really cool, down to earth people. Humorists, Musicians, Poets, Actors, many many great talented people. We had to wait 5 hours before the show. I slept, practiced bass, eat, warmed up, chilled outside. So the show arrived. I went backstage and I had to wait for the other artist to leave the stage. When he was done, the sound technicians told me to go on stage to set up my amp and pedals. The lights were all open and the crowd was there. So I went. It was awkward because everybody was looking at me setting up my stuff and I was really nervous. After I finished, all the lights just shutted down. I tought it was the cue for me to start playing. So I started but it was NOT the cue. There was a video that was presenting my performance. But I didint stop playing haha.
I started my solo bass set with a cool idea I had at the beginning of my 2008 jam video. It was going good. The crowd was into it, people got in the groove. I finished this jam and I continued with my solo bass song Nascosto Sole. I started to realise that the sound was weird so I was always turning my head to try to check the volume of my amp. So I said F*ck It and turned the volume REALLY high. I finished the song and people were screaming and going nuts. I couldnt find the microphone on stage so i screamed: THANK YOU. And I continued with a sick Slap Fiesta. Up to there, it went well. but AFTER, I wanted to finish the show with a really soft melodic improvisation using my loop pedal to record a slow bass part and do a little solo over it. I tried to record the main bass part, but my LOOP PEDAL STOPPED WORKING. In this competition, we have 10 minutes. If we go over that time, we will be disqualified. So I didint have the time to figure out what went wrong and I got really nervous I didint know what to do. So I had to finish the show right there. So I turned on my distorsion and did a little outro and Detuned my low string at the end. My performance was 8 minutes long and I had 10 minutes. I got a standing ovation, people really liked my show but I wasent satisfied and was really mad. People didint stop coming to me saying: Dude it was crazy, ur amazing, I never saw a bass doing that stuff before” And ALl I kept saying was: MY LOOP PEDAL DIDINT WORK AT THE END.
It is really frustrating. You practice like crazy everyday to do the best performance you can. And you get ruined by a stupid technical problem.
At the end, it was time to give the prizes. Judges were all actors in weird theatrical shows and directors of dramatic drama schools… no musicians… so I had NO chance to win.
I Lost.
I was really happy for the 1st prize winner, he diserved it, he did a really cool piano performance with some funny theatrical stuff.
But I was mad that people didin’t see my 100%. The show was filmed professionaly. When I will get it, I will post it on youtube and I will share it with all of you.
Experiences like that makes you better. Right now, I only want to play bass to express my rage. Each time I’m mad, I want to play bass.
April 25th I’m going to do an interesting show. I will be playing with a professional DJ and percussionist. It will be 1 hour of improvisation. I can’t wait.
Anyways, Im going to finish my coffee.
Have a nice day everybody!
Ps. I really cant get over this beautiful guitar solo by John Frusciante when they were in Montreal last year: